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Hey everyone,

   Don't you wish that the Mary Poppins scene where she snaps her fingers and everything cleaned and took care of itself was real. I mean it would be great we wouldn't have to worry, and life would just be peachy, and with that spoon full of sugar you are set!! However, this is not always how life rolls in fact through all of the trails, struggles we are to go through it says in the Bible that we are to remain steadfast as Job did. (Read James 5:11) Job went through HELL yes, HELL like no other in the Bible(not including Jesus okay for everyone who said accept for Jesus) because the Lord knew his heart would not be turned but allowed him to be tested by the enemy. Though it seems to be one of the strangest books of the Bible. I think it is to help remind us all who are walking in journey with Christ that it could always be worse.(hahaha...)That in the midst of our trials that when we choose God and not turn our backs on him because he is faithful to us! I mean Job got a double portion of everything he lost. (Not just 7,000 but 14,000 sheep come on!! :)) I feel like I am in a testing place of trust with the Lord and there is a wrestling in my spirit to keep looking at him and when I feel as it is all falling around me and nothing is going as I planned. I remember there is a great matter at work and that if I remain steadfast looking in his eyes then all the worries and fears I have start to fall away. It no longer is about me and my selfish desires but about him and what he wants to do on this earth through me. I am only here on this planet for a short while and though time is a strang thing. In one regard it seems so long and yet as you grow older it seems so short. If time is the thing that I am chained to then I will never go anywhere cause I will never be old enough to understand everything and I will never be young enough to go back and change it all to be right. So we just live in the moment today. I guess Jesus knew something about that when he said not to worry about tomorrow for it has enough of its own worries and will take care of itself or when in Matthew 6:27 it says, " And which of you by being anxious  can add a single hour to his span of life." Think about it when did you ever get more productive or get things done when you feared about everything. Though I find myself in this place a lot I hear a little voice reminding me that these fears, worries, and concerns aren't bigger then God.  Of course it always easy to fear then to have faith because fear we can tend to control and faith we have to learn to let go. Man... I am not good at this always but I am learning.

  With this all being said defiantly leads me to tell you that this next journey I am heading out on is not easy for me. Infact I find it easier to watch God provide in crazy ways for others then actually believe he will do it for me. I always like to tell Him, you know I can do this and take care of myself. Trust its one of the hardest things to do because in human nature anyone is capable of letting you down so we allow our understanding of human nature translate into God's nature. But that isn't who he is. He is a good father who provides for his children and that he will. I can't even believe that this is where life is taken and please don't take that in the wrong context. I mean that with all the joy in my heart that this journey I am is going to be filled with some of the greatest things yet in my life. I am so excited I just fear and worry of the things I can't see yet.

   Today I really was wondering what I should do because i am still am in need of funds and I felt like simply letting you all know what I am need of. We are a body of believers all with our eyes on the same person Jesus and with that we all have a come goal to make Him known as we have known him. So I am still needing your help! I am doing everything I can from selling things to still working till I leave. I need about 400 a month which if I got about 20 people to support me with $20 a month that would help cover the cost. If you want to give one time that is always helpful as well and if you want to give more monthly that is great but I want you to pray and see what the Lord says. I appericate everything you all are in my life and I know that God is a the ultimate provider of everything for you and for me. So if you are interested in joining with me and have a few questions please by all means email or call me if you have my number. My email is katelandhilty@gmail.com I would love to tell more if you are interested.

"Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nore reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to this span of life? And wh are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.  But if God so clothes the grass of the feild, which today is alive abd tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of Little faith? Matthew 6:25-30

This is where I have been and am being challenged daily. Its a good challenge learning to have faith in every circumstance in life.

Thanks for reading
Kateland :)